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Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts

Wednesday, 6 March 2024

The Buddhist Monastery

Following is one of my favourite chapters from my memoir/haibun Eel Pie Island Dharma. It's about the fall of 1969, after I'd resisted the draft for the Vietnam War and escaped to England. It was first self-published in 1990 with Unfinished Monument Press, then professionally republished in 2012 with Hidden Brook Press (thanks publisher Tai Grove). Thanks also to fellow Eel Pie Island communard Weed who kindly posted this online circa 2003. I believe it's one of the earliest English language book length haibun.   

EEL PIE DHARMA - a memoir / haibun -  © 1990 Chris Faiers



Chapter 11 - The Buddhist Monastery

Mark Valiant at first seemed an unlikely person to have a deeply religious side.  He was an ex-cop, and the story goes that as he was becoming more and more sympathetic towards the youth rebellion, one day he took the plunge, and took it in a big way.  Mark took a strong dose of STP, a psychedelic even more hallucinatory than LSD.  He tripped for three days, and after that experience he was a changed man.  He quit the police, grew a beard and took to hanging around L'Auberge Cafe.

Mark was one of the regulars in Martha's crowd, sort of an older brother for Martha and a surrogate son for the Holmes.  He had been the unofficial "elder" who took charge when Martha's parents left on their holiday to Ibiza, the one I ruined with the flooding bathtub.

A couple of times Mark led Sunday expeditions to a Buddhist monastery several miles away.  It was always exciting to get up early for a change, and to watch London slowly coming to life from the top deck of a double-decker bus.

A path led down a lane to the monastery and the temple beside it.  The service consisted of all present sitting in meditation in the comfortable chapel for about a half hour or forty-five minutes.  It was very relaxing, and the meditations were led by a monk, who sat in front.  The layout of the chapel and pews wasn't that dissimilar from a Christian service - with the notable difference that no words were spoken, no hymns sung.  It was up to each of us to make our peace with the world.

One morning a cat found its way into the chapel, and halfway through meditation it let out a yowl, and decided it wanted to go elsewhere.  It was amusing to see the startled look on all our faces at this unexpected interruption, but the monk calmly got up and let the cat out to wander off, and we resumed meditating.

My impression of these mornings is of a tranquil blue atmosphere.  There was a subtle presence of blue energy always present after we had begun meditating, and my feeling was that the monk was pleased with the aura, which I'm sure he was very aware of.

After the meditation session we would gather in the vestibule of the chapel, and drink tea and discuss religion.  Everyone present was offered an equal chance to speak, either to pose or to answer questions offered by the others present.  Not surprisingly, after the relaxing effects of the meditation, most of us didn't have much to say, the words would have just come between us and the immediacy of the experience of sitting calmly in the blue atmosphere of the chapel.

One Sunday morning in early winter, when I was making one of my last visits to the chapel with a couple of other Eel Piers, it began to snow.  Many years later I still clearly remember the experience of walking down the narrow lane, crunching the white powder under my scuffed boots, when this haiku popped into my mind:

walking to meditation
 though fresh snow




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Monday, 4 April 2011

meditation: a final literary frontier?

Meditation: a final literary frontier?

My last posting was a book review of Living and Dying in Zazen. Conrad Didiodato kindly replied that he’d like to know more of my impressions on Japanese Zen practices, and also my thoughts on a possible relationship between Eastern meditation practices and First Nations shamanism.

Meditation: a final literary frontier?
Perhaps writing about personal meditation experiences is one of the last literary frontiers. D. H. Lawrence and others crashed thru the literary sexual barriers in the 1930s, and books on personal finances have become bestsellers in recent decades. Reading about either now should bore the pants off anyone who has passed thru their teen years and learned to balance a chequebook.  

If you are a meditator, as I have been for most of my adult life (ages 19 to 62), you will likely find these ramblings on meditation unnecessary and redundant. But if you haven’t
explored meditation yourself, these thoughts may provide some insight and guidelines to the WHY AND HOW of meditation.

A highly educated friend teased me a few years ago with the rhetorical question, “What do you meditate on, nothing?” He thought he was being clever and putting me on the spot. I should have replied, “Try thinking of nothing. I’ll bet you a hundred dollars you can’t think of nothing for more than a second or two!”

Zazen: just sitting   “nobody doing nothing”
This was the main instruction from all five Japanese Zen teachers in this book: the primacy and necessity of just sitting in zazen, meditation, as often as possible. No goals, no expectations, no magic – just quietly sitting.

The author, Arthur Braverman, writes of his initial difficulty in doing this seemingly simple task. He tells of following his daily thoughts and their meaninglessness during his zazen training with the monks.

Kundalini/bardos/siddhis/bodhisattvas/nirvana/enlightenment – even haiku   : )
According to Braverman, Japanese Zen teachers don’t concern themselves with these more exotic aspects of Buddhism, which are usually associated with Tibetan Buddhism.
I don’t remember reading one of these words in the entire book. Japanese Zen Buddhism struck me as very basic, even simplistic. We Westerners want to get onto the real stuff after we’ve bent ourselves into knots practicing yoga and reading New Age gurus. But the Japanese practitioners keep returning to the purest aspects of meditation – ‘when sitting in meditation, one sits with Buddha’ … nothing more, nothing less.

Some personal experiences and evolving practice (even shamanism)
Enough blather for one day – will attempt this in a future posting. 
 

Friday, 18 February 2011

Namaste : ) welcome to the blog of Chris Faiers/cricket

Feb. 18, 2011
This is the inaugural posting to my poetry blog. Content will be an eclectic mix & discussion of all genres of poetry, including haiku/haibun, politikal, lyrical and updates on annual Purdy Country Literary Festivals (PurdyFests). Also appearing will be threads on Canadian People's Poetry, my ZenRiver Gardens retreat, spiritual topics - focusing on meditation/Buddhism, "crazy Zen wisdom", and  shamanism ... oh, & saving this hillbilly planet ... 

peace & poetry power!
Chris Faiers/cricket and Chase (my shi-tzu on steroids) - wroooooof!